Speed Tutorials

 

*moan alert*The speed tutorials have completely thrown me off..! A lot of different advice and perspectives on top of which what I had in mind has actually not worked, so a bit stumped. Been finding the whole thought experiment hard to keep fluid thoughts going. Not because of the work itself but there has been so much going on behind the scenes; three shows and a gallery to make work for...means my attention has been broken too many times. Now the Covid situation is changing again the impact of time management and planning again is having to be altered. These last few months, in my determination to still make and exhibit work, I have had to continually adapt plans and actions to fit in with other peoples needs and restrictions. I like to know where I am at, what is ahead so that I can properly delve into my work. This has been so challenging. So the thoughts of the thoughts experiment have been disrupted. Move on deal with it. Time is moving on decisions need to be made. A beautifully exquisite sewn text piece that leaves no trace is wonderful, I love it but there is not the time to do it justice.... who says this needs to be finished? Or even literal?
Striving for a finished piece is the perfectionist in me. I am trying to communicate an intangible idea in a tangible form. And have imposter syndrome. 

 

Tried to stitch the words. Dissolvable thread and fabric. Just not happy with this. If I am to do it needs to be delicate exacting work, I am too pressured by time to do this justice. I did try these two in water afterwards just to see if it works.

It is a really clunky film, but an experiment all the same. 

Its not sophisticated enough, a bit rubbish. So. Time to move on.

What came out of the tutorials, what has been whirling round my head since ?

Time, its passing; non-linear

Breath its mark, life evident

Text. the written word, its meaning, its strength, its entanglement in textile.

Intangibility

Mutation....g;litch

Destruction

Destruction

Burn, dissolve, melt, tear, rip, explode, cook

Mutation

Change words, draw over text, as done before, then destroy

Human beings an error, futile existence

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Feeling very frustrated and stuck

Tried to look at analogies and synonyms of words but just not grabbing me.

So back to the photocopier, enlarge enlarge. The text, the words are what has me tied in knots...they have filled my head throughout..so..to that...Mutate the text so its unrecognisable.